Hi, my name is Jessie and I’m 34, a mom of a 5 year old and a 3 year old. Being a mom has been a steep learning curve and every time I feel like I’ve finally caught up the rules change. There is so much we can’t control as a parent, as a woman, as a person but we can always keep learning. I have been on an amazing and interesting journey and how I got to where I am is a tale for different day but I have always loved art and I have always loved helping people. After having my babies I decided that, besides a photographer, I also very much wanted to be a birth doula which also led me to the decision to become a certified health coach. I am so in awe of what I didn’t know I didn’t know! But I digress…
Its always been an impossible feat to feel healthy and be at my preferred weight…growing up in Los Angeles with parents in the entertainment industry I was always excruciatingly aware of my weight. I think I starting learning to count calories when was the ripe old age of 12. I struggled with eating disorders and insecurities galore. Years of therapy and time abroad helped me gain perspective that I am eternally grateful for. I married a sweet, smart, handsome finance nerd and settled down into a happy life. After having my two babies, however, I regressed and found it hard to feel good about myself when, leaky boobs, sleep debt and clothes covered in spit up aside, I couldn’t exercise or eat well. I had lost control and I just couldn’t find the time or motivation to take care of myself. I wanted to lose the weight and feel like me again but nothing I did seem to get me over the fog of motherhood and pregnancy weight gain. I was the first of my friends with babies so they couldn’t help or empathize and there were no accessible, judgement free, dependable resources for me to rely on. I tried the Facebook Mommy groups, but that just a trigger for every parental anxiety I knew and didn’t know I had. While I found some solace in my work as a doula and photographer I still wasn’t investing the appropriate amount of time in myself and my needs.
It wasn’t until my kids were in preschool and kindergarten that I was able to come up for air and really address the elephant in the room: ME. Why couldn’t I lose weight? Why couldn’t I resist those donuts my husband brought home from work (fucker - no, it was sweet but - asshole). Why would I start a diet and quit after a week? Why couldn’t I make cooking healthy meals for my family a sustainable practice? It all felt completely Sisyphean. I would push the rock up the hill just to have it mow me over time and time again.
But instead of giving up I decided to dig…really dig into the latest in health sciences and how I could get some control back. What diets worked and didn’t work, why couldn’t I stay motivated? Were there less expensive options to eating healthy? What about quick and easy options? How could I get my kids to eat better? I found myself studying to become a certified health coach, so that I could have access to the most pertinent and research backed information and have the authority to pass that information onto others.
And while I continue to read, learn, and study, I’m here to share with you what I have gleaned thus far from dozens of books, classes and workshops. I want to give you what I couldn’t find in those early postpartum days - health, community, respite, humor and the idea that you are most definitely not alone.